One of the greatest things I battle with in life is not feeling like I am enough or there is never enough of me to go around. I will admit it, right now it's bad. I keep saying "God won't give me more than I can handle" but I'm running out of hands. As much as I would like to channel my inner hecatonchire, I have to bow my head in defeat that I am only one person.
Lately at the end of my days I am just worn out. I am fighting to do what's right for my kids while dealing with an insane amount of other crap. And in that amount of other crap I have to stop and ask "does anyone remember what I'm going through? Does anyone have any idea the amount of weight I'm carrying around on a daily basis?". Some days its like I'm in a grape press. I want to stay positive and keep my head up but some days are hard (the rain probably isn't helping). I just wish someone would stop and remember how much is going on and that it's all going on inside this little body and mind. I know I've been through MUCH worse and in the end this will be fine also, I'm just frustrated. I know it might sound selfish but I'm trying to do so much for so many while dealing with other huge life altering matters and there is only so much of me to go around.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day........
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